Anam, Meri Jaan...

I don’t even know how to begin this… because what I feel for you is not something words were ever designed to carry. Still, I am trying… because if I stay silent, my heart will feel heavy with everything it holds for you.

You are not just someone I love.

You are something my life has slowly wrapped itself around.

You are not just a part of my story.

You are the reason the story even feels worth living.

Our beginning did not start on 14 feb.

It started long before that… two years before that… in silence.

In moments you never noticed.

In feelings I never confessed.

For two years, you lived inside me quietly.

Not loudly, not dramatically… but deeply.

You were a thought that stayed longer than it should.

A name that felt different.

A presence even when you were not around.

I used to notice the smallest things about you… the way you spoke, the way you reacted, the way you existed… and somehow all of it stayed with me.

I liked you in a way that had no expectations.

No demands.

No guarantees.

Just a quiet feeling that refused to leave.

There were so many times I wanted to tell you everything.

So many moments where my heart was ready to speak.

But I stayed silent.

Because sometimes you are so afraid of losing someone… that you choose silence over risk.

And I carried you like that… for two years.

Without you knowing.

Without you realizing that someone out there… was already choosing you… every single day.

Then came 14 feb.

The day the world celebrates love.

But for me… it became something much bigger.

It became the day my silence finally found its voice.

The day what I felt inside me… stopped being hidden.

The day something shifted… not just in my life… but inside me.

From that moment, you were no longer just someone I liked.

You became someone I had.

And that feeling…

It changed everything.

Then came 9 march.

The day I saw you for the first time.

Not on a screen.

Not through imagination.

But real.

Alive.

In front of me.

When I came to Noorani Paramedical College in Pulwama to receive you… my heart was not calm.

It was racing in a way I had never felt before.

I tried to act normal… but inside me everything was trembling.

And when you walked toward me…

I swear…

Everything else disappeared.

It was just you.

That moment felt unreal.

Like something I had imagined a thousand times… finally becoming real.

We drove together toward that quiet road near IUST… that AIMS road…

And parked the car.

That small space…

Became our world.

From 12 pm to 3:30 pm…

Time lost its meaning.

At first we were nervous.

Two people who had known each other through words…

Now sitting close in reality.

We laughed.

We looked at each other.

We looked away.

Then looked again.

Your eyes… Anam…

Your eyes are not just beautiful.

They are a depth.

A place.

A universe.

When I look into them… I don’t just see you.

I get lost.

Completely.

Like my soul forgets everything else.

There is calm in them…

But also something so deep that it pulls me in without asking.

When I kissed you for the first time…

It did not feel like just a moment.

It felt like something inside me finally found what it had been searching for.

Soft.

Real.

Unforgettable.

Your lips felt like a memory I didn’t know I was waiting for.

The way you closed your eyes…

The way you came closer…

That moment is alive inside me.

The car was closed.

The air was warm.

We were both sweating.

But none of it mattered.

Because we were lost in each other.

Your closeness…

Your warmth…

The way your hands held me…

Everything felt intense… alive… real.

There were no distractions.

No world outside.

Just you and me.

And then…

That moment…

The most peaceful moment of my life.

When you rested your head on my lap.

And I held you closer.

That moment was not about anything else.

It was not about desire.

It was not about excitement.

It was peace.

Pure peace.

The kind people search for their entire lives.

I could feel your breath.

I could feel your heartbeat.

And I remember thinking…

If life has anything more than this…

I don’t need it.

Because this…

This is enough.

Then came 11 march.

When I came to surprise you around 3 pm.

You didn’t expect me.

And the way you looked at me…

That shock…

That happiness in your eyes…

I will never forget it.

That moment is still alive in my mind.

Giving you that gift…

It was never about the gift.

It was about your smile.

Because your smile…

Has become something my heart depends on.

Anam…

Your eyes…

They are not just beautiful.

They are a place where I lose myself willingly.

Your voice…

It is not just sound.

It is comfort.

Even your simplest words feel like they carry warmth meant only for me.

Your hair…

The way it falls…

The way it frames your face…

It feels like night itself chose you.

Everything about you feels natural.

Effortless.

Real.

And that is what makes you irreplaceable.

You gave me everything.

Without even realizing.

You gave me peace.

You gave me warmth.

You gave me meaning.

You gave me a version of myself I never knew existed.

And now…

I cannot imagine going back to who I was before you.

Because that version of me…

Did not know what it meant to feel like this.

I need to say this honestly…

You are not just part of my life.

You are an integral part of me.

Like breath.

Like heartbeat.

Like something I cannot function without.

And I am not saying this lightly.

I am saying this because it is my truth.

If you leave…

Something inside me will not just break.

It will go silent.

I will still exist.

But I will not feel the same.

Because loving you has changed the way I experience everything.

Stay with me.

Please.

Not just now.

But in everything that comes ahead.

Stay with me in the good moments.

Stay with me in the difficult ones.

Stay with me when life feels easy.

Stay with me when life tests us.

And I promise you something…

I will not love you halfway.

I will not choose you sometimes.

I will choose you every single time.

Fully.

Honestly.

Completely.

I will give you everything I have.

My time.

My loyalty.

My honesty.

My heart in its rawest form.

I will stand beside you when the world feels heavy.

I will hold you when words are not enough.

I will become your calm when everything feels chaotic.

I do not want a perfect love.

I want a real one.

The kind that stays.

The kind that grows.

The kind that survives everything.

And with you…

That feels possible.

Anam…

You are not just someone I love.

You are my peace.

My comfort.

My home.

My everything.

And if love has any truth in this world…

Then my truth is you.

I will love you.

Not just today.

Not just in these moments.

But in ways that time cannot break.

In ways distance cannot weaken.

In ways silence cannot erase.

Forever.

Just stay.

Because with you…

I am everything.

And without you…

I am incomplete ❤️

I lovvveeee youuuuu soooooo muchhhhhhh!

I Loveeee Youuu To The Moon And Backkk!

MMMUUUUAAAAAHHHHHH!

Hope apko psnd aaya ho meri jaan!

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